Friday, May 13, 2011

Lessons Learned

I recently decided that I am going to take on grad school at NC State in the Fall.  I want to get a Master's in Special Education.  The only thing that is holding me back a little is finances.  It's really tough having to deal with getting loans, trying to find a job in Raleigh and looking for an apartment. It will definitely be a big expense but I don't see a better time than now to get my Master's.  I have been wanting to go back to school for a while so I really think the time is right.  I've come to learn that you have to really take the initiative to do whatever makes yourself happy, because you are the only one who knows what that will be. I don't think anyone else would have talked to me about going to graduate school or doing anything other than just staying right where I am at. I don't know what I was waiting on before but this is something that I really want to do for myself and I'm proud of myself for doing it all on my own.
Other things have changed in my life recently too, such as no longer having a boyfriend.  The worst part of the whole thing is realizing how much time was wasted.  Every time that I think something is going well it ends up falling apart.  So I guess I need to stop getting attached too easily and stop getting my hopes up about any future possibilities with someone until I have dated them for years.  This time I'm not really upset though.  I just really wish that guys would show there true self earlier on in the relationship.  Anyway, I'm happy to have found out that it wasn't going to work before getting any farther.  Now I have grad school I can focus on and look forward to. 

1 comment:

katlupe said...

Good for you, making your plans! At least you found out before you married him and had some kids to see his true colors! Be careful and don't waste your time, life is too short to spend years in a miserable relationship. I did that and now my life is at the other end and I live with many regrets of making the wrong choices. At least you are aware of these things now, at a young age. Best of luck to you!